You Don’t Know Anything

I used to smile calmly, even though my heart was actually crying. You are a new story in my life, you are a story that is written with certainty in my mind, and you are very interesting. You have to hug me for a while, we will let this feeling merge and melt. I will leave all this as it should be, that you will never be mine. I will try to forget all of this, I will also trying to leave it. I’m sure I will feel peace and you will leave soon. Among millions, you are still and you are always shine brightly. I hope someday this story will get a piece of the story that is missing, and if not, i hope you get a beautiful story after that. Maybe you don’t understand about this right now, but I’m sure you will understand soon.

 

“You Don’t Know Anything Until The Time Comes Later”

– Alif Satria –

 

 

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May it be

Lying down, you are tired and need to rest, the night has come and you have arrived at the end of the journey for today, it’s time to sleep and dream of the people who came before. They call you from the far corner of the road. Why are you sad?, why are you crying?, why are there tears on your face?. You will immediately see all the fear that will pass, close your eyes and get ready to see a beautiful day tomorrow, you only need to sleep. You must believe that you will immediately arrive at your home, a very beautiful place and comfortable place. I think you will be happy there. Wait for me, we will meet there soon, you will see my beautiful wife, my wonderful children, and also father and mother that always pray for you. I just miss you so much Grandma. When the night is overcome, you may rise to find the sun, just believe and you will find your way.

“Wish angels are celebrating your birthday in heaven Grandma. There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t think of you. I love you so much Grandma”

– Alif Satria –

We Have Our Own Loneliness

Don’t be jealous, we have our own loneliness, if people’s lives seem lively, it’s because of the loneliness that is celebrated in luxury. If people’s lives seem ordinary, it means that loneliness is celebrated in a simple way. Everyone has feelings that them controls, I’m sure about that. All things have their own beauty but maybe not everyone can see and feel it. I have never looked down on or underestimated what I consider less beautiful. What I see as less beautiful can be a beauty in the eyes of others. I realize everyone will always have their own point of view in seeing things. When we feel lonely and alone, it does not mean we do not have many friends, it does not mean we do not have beautiful things in life, it does not mean we have to be sad and jealous of others, but… we are in a condition to get to know ourselves better.

I once felt lonely and alone, no one cared, maybe no one knew, no one came to accompany me. At that time my friend was only one, that was me, with a gray and uncertain purpose. Actually we will never feel lonely and alone in this life, we have ourselves, we have our own feelings, we have our own thoughts. Do what we want to do, exercise, morning run, eat, watch movies, listen to music, sleep, read books, mediate, and other things. Just relax and enjoy life because the best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way. I hope you all agree with me.

 

“So many people are shut up tight inside themselves like boxes, yet they would open up, unfolding quite wonderfully, if only you were interested in them.”

– SILVYA PLATH –

Dilemma

My mind began to feel tired, but my heart can always argue that. My mind started to get stuck, but my heart always accompanies me. My mind is getting lazy, but instead my heart churned. My mind began to feel empty, but my heart is always ready to fill it. My mind began to not care about anything, but again and again my heart always says “don’t go, just stay”. Feelings are always in the front lines and love always wins first, before the disappointment that came crashing. I will let things go as they are, pass properly and end as they should be. My dilemma is that i hate change and love it at the same time what i really want is for things to remain the same but get better. I think people crave those meaningful situations, like stuff about faith, identity, romance, work, anf dilemmas of live paradoxes in our souls. It’s going back to a time where lives were really defined by history, and also how you behave in the face of history. It’s kind of interesting to go back to that simpler humanity, simpler but deeper. To me, one of the things i strive for is realism. I need to be as real as possible in the dilemmas my characters face.

 

“Stories are told not to preach or counsel people but to reflect the dilemmas of our time”

– SOBHITA DHULIPALA –

 

We’re All Bad In Someone’s Story

Everyone has their own story, maybe for some people, they want to share their stories and some people might not. I have to realize that I can’t control other people, I will never know what other people think, and I will never know what people will do to me, all I know is that I have done with good things for myself. Some people easily judge something, some people are also easy to hate something, they do that because they not fully understood. Sometimes I can look like very bad to other people, sometimes I can look like a fool person in the eyes of others and sometimes I can look like very useless by others and I think that is not a problem. People may say we are ugly, useless, stupid, poor, etc. What should we do about that?, I think what we have to do is ask ourselves, is that right? they don’t know me more deeply, they also don’t know me fully and I think they are also innocent, because everyone sometimes quickly evaluates things without wanting to find out more, and sometimes I do that, but I will change. Yeah, WE’RE ALL BAD IN SOMEONE’S STORY BUT NOT WITH OUR OWN STORY.

 

I don’t know how my story will be in the future and I also never want to know about it, the important thing is how to live my story well.

– Alif Satria –

Care To Each Other

I saw pregnant women waiting in line to exchange a bag of rice with a bucket of tears. I saw children dropping out of school and sad on the roadside. I saw young people singing and laughing by smoking cigarettes at the edge of the shop. I see young people suffer because they have not got a job. I saw an old man who slept on the side of the road and hoped to get a packet of food. I saw a house without a roof, I saw a house without a base, and I saw water mixed with soil.

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I try to help, give them a little money. my heart is always sad when I see this, sometimes I think, if one day I become a very rich person, I will try to make a place for people who are poor or people who have nothing. now all I can do is pray for them, help people around me and continue to cultivate a sense of caring for others.

 

” Caring – About People, About Things, About Life – Is An Act Of Maturity ”

– TRACY McMILLAN –

 

Sky Still Blue And The Sun Still Shining

I just need to be grateful for what I have today, even though what I was waiting for never came, what I had fought for had not achieved results and everything that I expected never happened, I did not worry or complain about that. I just have to stay strong and thanks to God because I can still survive and fight until now. I have never complained about what has happened in the past and what has happened at this time, if that has happened, then let it happen. The world is too beautiful if we are always ignore it.

Life is “now”, I did not live in the past, so I will never complain about what happened.

I am grateful for what I have today. I will continue to look for beautiful things in this world, keep running and keep struggling to find happiness. Nothing can make me happy then me, I think the sky still blue and the sun is still shining brightly, so there is no reason for me to complain about the situation.

“If we complain about our lives at the moment, it means we have injured people out there who are still struggling in difficult circumstances”

– Original By Writer –