You Don’t Know Anything

I used to smile calmly, even though my heart was actually crying. You are a new story in my life, you are a story that is written with certainty in my mind, and you are very interesting. You have to hug me for a while, we will let this feeling merge and melt. I will leave all this as it should be, that you will never be mine. I will try to forget all of this, I will also trying to leave it. I’m sure I will feel peace and you will leave soon. Among millions, you are still and you are always shine brightly. I hope someday this story will get a piece of the story that is missing, and if not, i hope you get a beautiful story after that. Maybe you don’t understand about this right now, but I’m sure you will understand soon.

 

“You Don’t Know Anything Until The Time Comes Later”

– Alif Satria –

 

 

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May it be

Lying down, you are tired and need to rest, the night has come and you have arrived at the end of the journey for today, it’s time to sleep and dream of the people who came before. They call you from the far corner of the road. Why are you sad?, why are you crying?, why are there tears on your face?. You will immediately see all the fear that will pass, close your eyes and get ready to see a beautiful day tomorrow, you only need to sleep. You must believe that you will immediately arrive at your home, a very beautiful place and comfortable place. I think you will be happy there. Wait for me, we will meet there soon, you will see my beautiful wife, my wonderful children, and also father and mother that always pray for you. I just miss you so much Grandma. When the night is overcome, you may rise to find the sun, just believe and you will find your way.

“Wish angels are celebrating your birthday in heaven Grandma. There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t think of you. I love you so much Grandma”

– Alif Satria –

We Have Our Own Loneliness

Don’t be jealous, we have our own loneliness, if people’s lives seem lively, it’s because of the loneliness that is celebrated in luxury. If people’s lives seem ordinary, it means that loneliness is celebrated in a simple way. Everyone has feelings that them controls, I’m sure about that. All things have their own beauty but maybe not everyone can see and feel it. I have never looked down on or underestimated what I consider less beautiful. What I see as less beautiful can be a beauty in the eyes of others. I realize everyone will always have their own point of view in seeing things. When we feel lonely and alone, it does not mean we do not have many friends, it does not mean we do not have beautiful things in life, it does not mean we have to be sad and jealous of others, but… we are in a condition to get to know ourselves better.

I once felt lonely and alone, no one cared, maybe no one knew, no one came to accompany me. At that time my friend was only one, that was me, with a gray and uncertain purpose. Actually we will never feel lonely and alone in this life, we have ourselves, we have our own feelings, we have our own thoughts. Do what we want to do, exercise, morning run, eat, watch movies, listen to music, sleep, read books, mediate, and other things. Just relax and enjoy life because the best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way. I hope you all agree with me.

 

“So many people are shut up tight inside themselves like boxes, yet they would open up, unfolding quite wonderfully, if only you were interested in them.”

– SILVYA PLATH –

Dilemma

My mind began to feel tired, but my heart can always argue that. My mind started to get stuck, but my heart always accompanies me. My mind is getting lazy, but instead my heart churned. My mind began to feel empty, but my heart is always ready to fill it. My mind began to not care about anything, but again and again my heart always says “don’t go, just stay”. Feelings are always in the front lines and love always wins first, before the disappointment that came crashing. I will let things go as they are, pass properly and end as they should be. My dilemma is that i hate change and love it at the same time what i really want is for things to remain the same but get better. I think people crave those meaningful situations, like stuff about faith, identity, romance, work, anf dilemmas of live paradoxes in our souls. It’s going back to a time where lives were really defined by history, and also how you behave in the face of history. It’s kind of interesting to go back to that simpler humanity, simpler but deeper. To me, one of the things i strive for is realism. I need to be as real as possible in the dilemmas my characters face.

 

“Stories are told not to preach or counsel people but to reflect the dilemmas of our time”

– SOBHITA DHULIPALA –

 

If All Our Wishes Come True, Where Will We Learn To Be Patient?

Some people in this world maybe every time they want something, the next day they get it. and some people don’t get everything they want. Sometimes we don’t get everything we want, but it’s actually a good thing, if all our desires come true, then where will we learn to be patient? where will we learn not to give up? where will we learn about a struggle? where will we learn about spirit? and where we will learn to work hard with purpose and something we want.

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therefore we must learn to be patient and learn to never give up in achieving what we want. we also get lessons on how to stay close to God, hard work and never give up.
I will not be sad when I do not get what I want, I will never be angry about it. what I do is look at the sky and say to myself “my efforts are still lacking to get it, so don’t be sad for something we don’t fight to the maximum, so what are you waiting for, fight again !!!”
“There Is Something Good In All Seeming Failures. You Are Not To See That Now. Time Will Reveal It. Be Patient”
– SIVANANDA SARASWATI –

Human Being

Is there anything more confusing than humans?
They live by forgetting history, even though history makes them grow, they always worry about the future, so they sacrifice the present, they want to sacrifice their health for money, then they sacrifice their money for health. Those who become rulers always say Fight for their people, Even though the people continue to believe and wait until death. They always want to be cared for by others, but they are rarely and never care about others. They live life As if they will never die, then they die without really enjoying life.

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This is indeed confusing, people often do it without them knowing it. I will continue to strive to be a truly human person. being truly human is sometimes difficult, because we don’t have the measurement power, but try to be human as real humans are.

” Wherever there is a human being, there is an opportunity for a kindness ”

– LUCIUS ANNAEUS SENECA –

 

I Just Write

Many events in this life, maybe not all things we can remember, everyone must have felt a happy life and everyone also must have experienced a difficult life. I like to write something that happens in my life, I just write, I think by writing I can tell all that I feel, I feel free and comfortable with it. Writing gives me serenity. Everything I feel, all the problems, all the grief and all the pain I feel I just write, write and write, just write it.

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Sometimes I think …. “I don’t know what . I don’t know why I write. I just write something what i feel ” And then slowly, through the words, something emerges and emotional.  I write to feel the thrill and excitement and possibility: as I lose all sense of no, stopping and sitting and forgetting everything but the writing.

 

” I Write To Give Myself Strength. I Write To Be The Characters That I Am Not. I Write To Explore All The Things I’m Afraid Of “

 – JOSS WHEDON –